Lately I’m feeling a little bit frustrated. Not in life, that is going great, BTW, but with some aspects about live and work in community. I found myself thinking “OMG, what now?!” before read one more tweet in my timeline or some new message in a mailing list.

It’s hard to see people around the project trying to explain to other people some things that should be considered natural as breathing. I tell you, is a bad thing feel ashamed by the actions of others. I shouldn’t, but I do. Until not long ago (and believe me, sometimes I still do) I felt myself not worthy of being part of this world, but in recent days I’m feeling a lot better because I do know when things are wrong and people are talking nonsense around.

You could stop drinking coffee at all because you burned your tongue this morning? Or could you live alone forever if someone leave you with your heart broken?

I understand that some things hurts a lot, and I think that take a long time to decrease pain and you can think about the episode in a rational way. But this time comes for everyone with 32 teeth. I just think that is unfair to blame all coffee in the world because I burned my tongue in some bad coffeehouse around. I’m simplifying the problem? Maybe yes, maybe no.

I like very much of that famous speech of Steve Jobs at Stanford in 2005, and about simplifying things, I always remember that part:

“Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure – these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.”

Yeah, I know, not easy, isn’t it?

But what we can do? Live with fear of being hurt again? Live with the fear of fail again? Live of the fear of not be good enough? This would be a pathetic little life. We should grow up, accept our mistakes, learn with them, understand that there will always be assholes with no conscience and try again. But never, ever punish people who work like (or harder than) us, to build a better world, because of our fear.

I can’t help but thinking in that people who like to take advantage of the project’s name but not want to give anything in return… and I think we’ve enough of them.